Life gets in the way sometimes

I've got so much to learn in the healthy eating business.

I'm proud of where I have come from, and where I am heading.  I'm loving PT, liking the occasional walk .....

And yes, that is where it is ending.  I'm not doing enough.  I'm exercising 3 days a week, and 2 of those days - not always raising a sweat.

Adding to that the mind cluster screwing 9 week bloody plateau - and you have - yup, a slightly loopy me.

Needless to say, I've been assessing this quite heavily, and seeing that basically I have a mind block (I still see myself how I was, not where I am).  I have to assess my friendship base - I've had some awesome support from some, and some backhanded support from others.  I'm using it too much.  I need to do this for me, and to quote the rappers - ignore the haters.

So - my commitment from today.

1/ Track food/water.  I'm aiming for 1500 cals. 
2/ Exercise.  Minimum of 2 gym, 3 walking sessions.  Minimum.  Will try and squeeze a swim or two in there!
3/  Stop looking for support where it isn't.  Just stop.
4/  Count my blessings.  I'm SO lucky.

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Food is not the enemy.

I need to learn this.  I'm eating so well during the day, and then screw it up by eating junk or too much of a night. 

I realised I'd been seeing food as the enemy - the cal enemy.  And it shouldn't be.  It should be food that nourishes and helps me to move - not good foods and bad foods.  Even though this weeks mindset talked about this - I went and did it anyhow :P

Ok, this is my job this week.  From now.  I'm not going to look at food in this way.  I'm going to think of what it can provide to my body.  If I want chocolate, I will have a piece - not the screw it and eat the whole row attitude.

I've learned that this giving weight away business is 80% nutrition, and 20 % exercise.  But most importantly, it is 100% mindset.  And in my case, my body will hold onto the weight when I am in a bad space mentally.

So that is damn well going to change!

At 12.10pm today

I came to a realisation.  I'm happy.  I'm happy when I exercise.  I'm currently loving life (although missing my husband dearly :( )

Exercise makes me happy.   I love the feeling of being healthier.  I love the working-out until I nearly spew moments (never again is yoghurt a breakfast before PT a good idea!) - I love the gentle walks, I love the running around like a mad fool on the hockey field.

To explain the pic - the big one is the Gorge (in the city where I live).  It is in flood at the moment and is just amazing.  It has a great little track to walk along.  It is full of hills.  I used to huff and puff and need to rest.  I don't now!  The top pic is the cal burn of that walk.

The middle pic is me attempting not to spew, after today's workout.  OMG.  Worked so hard, felt so good.  Weights make me happy!  The last pic is my cal burn from a primarily weights burn.  SMASHED it.  I have the best PT (although just quietly, I was not loving her in the treadmill deadweight runs.)

There is no way 12 months ago I would dream of doing this.  6 months ago - me at a gym, bahaha.

Now, it makes me happy.  Life really is good.

I'm back in the saddle!

I'm back!

After 5 weeks of being sick/injured, and basically just using hockey as my exercise :)

I am back on the horse!  The top left photo is a picture of the leg press machine.  The plate is 53kgs, and it has 80kgs on either side.  Yes, I made my 200 kg aim (I pressed 213) and did it in 2 sets of 6.

The cal burn is from the PT session(top right), and a lovely wander this morning of 6km (bottom left).  My exercise selfie was done before the DOMs have kicked in :P

Irony is the DOMs are in my shoulders - it was a legs day.  LOL

Since I'm on a roll

I can do this!

Thoughts. Processing the "journey" this far.

Jeepers, a long time between posts, then two in one day!

Anyhow, had a quiet first day to the round thanks to a sick girl child.  Thankfully she is my sleeper, so her method of dealing with any sickness is to sleep it off. 

This gave me the morning to really contemplate about this weight loss business, and more than you ever do bargain for when you make that new years resolution to "lose weight"

217 days ago I registered my interest in 12WBT, and 210 days ago, I bit the bullet and signed up.  As I have said in my previous post, in that time I've lost 42 kilos (about 92 1/2 pounds) and 180cm (70 inches) shed from my body.  Wow - it is huge.  I'm not denying that.

But ...

It is never, ever going to stay off successfully unless I work through why I got myself to the morbidly obese stage I did - nor is it healthy to not address it.

Quite frankly, I was obese because I was depressed.  Never diagnosed (well besides Dr Google) but I have NO doubt as to what it was.  I had/have all the symptoms.  Eating made the dullness - I don't know - go?  I couldn't verbalise how I felt - I couldn't explain it.  I didn't want to upset others, so I thought I could work through it and all would be right in the world you know ... 

Yup, not the best way to work through depression.  In fact, even now I have days where I just feel worthless.  Thankfully nowadays they are few and far between, and I have trustworthy 3rd parties that are paid to get it :P 

Perception is another huge one.  Fat people are percieved differently - look at social media, at media in general.  That guilt (and mostly perceived guilt) didn't help the good old depressive moments.

I also felt lesser for giving up my career to become a full time mum.  Ah, the good old WOHM/WAHM/SAHM debate.  I have no regrets for doing it looking back - but that first couple of years, when we truly struggled - I did regret it.

But that is all excuses.  Excuses that are incredibly valid - but still something that needs to be worked through.  My method of working through them was the problem.  Miss "I can do it without medication" was medicating - with food.  Looking back - even to last year, it is so obvious.  So obvious.  But, until I was ready, I couldn't see it.

Now, lets add to this "journey"

I moved to the opposite end of the state when the boy children were 8 weeks old (and the girl child just 2).  Boy 1 and 2 (which we didn't know at the time) had ear problems - which meant essentially they found sleep painful.  At almost 12 months, we had a 3 week block in sleep school - and yes, still didn't sleep.  Countless grommets, adenoids x 2 each, plus removal of tonsils and uvula for boy 2 finally lead to consistent sleep throughs at 7 and 8.    Ah yes, food was my saviour at that time.  It kept me awake so I could cope.

As you can see, I self medicate with food.  This 210 days has taught me that this is common (yay, that made my day learning I wasn't the only one!), that by owning each piece of food that goes into your mouth, your eyes are opened about how much food you actually consume.

Ironically a lot of days, I wasn't eating enough - flinging my body into starvation mode.  I'd then eat like a maniac - meaning that poor body of mine had no idea what the hell was happening.  Added to being morbidly obese, the thought of exercise was horrifying.

I remember puffing walking up steps - walking longer than a km, gosh - anything.  I'd avoid anything to do with exercise except my beloved hockey.  Each game would push me over for days though - leaving me short tempered and craving food.  Argh!  LOL

What I have learned thus far.

- Clean eating tastes amazing.  You feel good.
- I do have hunger pains.  I honestly can not remember what they were like before.
- That making a bad choice is not the end of the world.  Own it and move on.  Beating yourself up - achieves nothing other than guaranteeing another bad choice

- Exercise hurts - but it is an okay hurt.  Pushing yourself to your limit, not other peoples - amazing.
- I adore weights - and that is the direction I can see myself going.  There is only so much cardio I can do, and it doesn't interest me.  Weights feels amazing, it feels right, and I love feeling stronger.

Psychologically, about 3 years ago, I was affected badly by someone who spread lies.  The new me would attempt not to GAF about it all (and most likely still be affected :P ).  However, it wasn't the new me, it was me at one of my lowest moments.  It lead to a lot of turmoil.  But, I've risen from this.  In fact, the barbs have helped move me along when JFDI doesn't work.  The lies unravel, and the real me is emerging.  I won't lie - I still am affected at times by the aftermath.  But that is my perception and something I have to work through.

One day ...

And although that moment in time, and from then on had people decide they could no longer acknowledge me (least they were honest - so much better than back stabbing), through this time some very special friends emerged.  Some rocks from the past remained, and I thank them all.  Do any of them "get it all".  No, I still have walls up, and can't say they will ever go down.  But they were there, they helped, and I will never forget it. 

To be blunt, my major catalyst was probably something insignificant compared to most people.  And it is a blip - there is so much more I could have lost.  I know this. I accept this.  But it doesn't mean it isn't important - to me. 

Thanks for reading my blurt out xx

Well my poor neglected blog - I'm a slacker.

 Round 2 - it has been all about the inner teen.  I've been fighting that rebelling bitch the whole round. 

And you know what - she almost won.  However, she didn't.  I managed a 10kg loss, and 40 cm shredded away.

So on a whole - I have lost 42 kilos.  I have lost just over 180cm. 

So this is what I have lost

 

 

 

And cm wise - a whole shoe lace.  It doesn't look much - until you open it up!

I've pushed into new waters, discovering a new found love for weights (Oh so much burn - love).  I pushed out a 39.20 parkrun (and went down with pneumonia the next week!).  I've got upto 25.20 running, and only stopping due to pulling out the emergency stop magnet (Oops!).  I found the best PT in the world who gets it.  She is a 12WBT Alum and has amazing insight in how to deal with things.  I love her sessions every week and have really learned from each and everyone.

So, my aims for this round.  Round 3 - the round for me.

My commitment for this round of 12WBT -

I'm not focusing on weight loss. I'm focusing on a stronger, leaner me. I'm committing to exercise 4+ times a week. I'm committing to put every skerrick of food into MFP (I've slacked on that!). I'm committing to keeping up my magnesium, and to drink at least 3 litres of water a day. I'm initially not going to exercise on days I get called into work. But, I am going to work out how to fit it in during this round. I'm going to eat clean. And love it!

I'm going to do the learn to run program. I want to be able to run 5km by November. I'm not a runner, so that should be entertaining. I have a PB of 39.20ish for the park run - I'd like to beat that, and do it all running.

And for the fun stuff. I want to try a new food every week. I want to fit into an aeroplane seat without an extension belt (I think I can, but I want to be sure). I want to drop another 2 dress sizes. I want to leg press 200 kilos - and in a set. I want to win the hockey grand final (ok, that one may not be 12WBT but anyway :P ). And most importantly - I want my good health to continue. Oh, and continue on my search for cal-free chocolate :) 

 

 

 

A lot happens in a week.

You know, your 3 children all come down with a mystery illness.  Which turns out was bronchitis.  Poor bubs.  Turns out in the early stages, Bronchitis is contagious.  Ergo, mum with it as well.  So since the last time I have posted, I have walked maybe 4000 steps (in 5 days - oh the shame).  I have been quite sooky and miserable.  Thanks to those that listened to me bitch - it has been quite a ride.

Needless to say, with 4 of us down and out, none of us - well ate.   So this week's weigh in was a huge success (4.2 kilos).  That is the weight of this:

Nice!  Today, I'm really starting to feel better as well - so back to work slowly I go :) 

This weight dump has managed to throw me over the 30kg mark lost.  Nice.  Since my theme so far has been fish - who am I to disappoint ...

Yup - I have lost 32.2 kilos, and a whole mako.  Nice!

Thank you all for your support.  Hopefully tomorrows exercise will have me back and in the game again

Fiona

Tired ...........

As a run down of today - run (warm up for boot camp), boot camp, walk, then walk on tready at gym, arm and abs workout, pick up kids and take to various sports, and then another walk while waiting for 2 of the said kids.

This is todays burn.  the first 0.00 is bootcamp, the second is weights (arm and abs)

Cal burn - first set is the walk while the boys were at soccer.  Second is at the gym (weights and walk).  Third is run, bootcamp and walk.  Nice burn :)

Over 20000 steps today (or 16.69 km's) moved today, and DOMs are well ... magnesium and advil ain't going to do any saving from this pain! 



And for my non-Tassie viewers - this is my sights while I walk -

I love Tassie :)

Hump day - and the fallout.

To start with, I want to have a bit of a "boast".  Last night I had a AGM for aths.  It traditionally is a sugar feast, and last night was no exception.  3 packets of tim tams.  My nemesis!  I managed to sit, sip on my coke zero (not ideal, but hey, the lesser of the two evils!) and not let a morsel past my lips.  I confess, I didn't have anything, as I knew that if I did start - I may not have stopped.   Damn the home made fruit cake looked divine! 

For 2 1/2 hours, I watched people eat.  And the majority was mindless eating - eating for the sake of it.  How I recognised it?  If you look in the dictionary for the definition of mindless eating, there would be a mug shot of me.  I'm not going to be able to pretend that I can resist everytime or even next time.  I'm human, I'm me.  There is every chance I will f*ck up sometimes, lets face it.  But this time - I resisted, and I am proud.

Anyhow, onto today.  After having a quick skinny latte with my family, Mum and I headed for a quick walk (440 cals).  Nice warmup for my gym today.  Today was run day, where I had to do a quick warm up, and then run - for as long as I could.

First week - 2 minutes, 2 seconds.  Today - 15.46.  OMG.  I may have only lost 100 grams this week (my sins of Mothers Day catching up with me ) but wow - I'm really pleased with that.  In all honesty, I can walk faster - but I ran and kept the rhythm.  It felt good, and now I know I can do it.  The bottom two pics - well you see, I felt on top of the world because I ran - so I figured after I finished my 40 mins on the tready, I'd push myself.  2km on the eliptical in 16.32.  Talk about burn.  I then finished off with a squat or two (or 5 groups of 20). 


PPPPPPPAAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNN.  Magnesium supplements can only do so much Fiona!

And for those of my followers - don't forget #drinkupbuttercup!

3 litres of water, and some musings about today.

yesterday - check!

Today's workout was yesterdays L2R program.  In the end, as I wanted to get some km's in  my legs - 72 minutes on the tready, and 7.0 km walked/run.  Nice.

So far, so good with this week.  I'm not going to pretend it is easy.  It is not.   I work my arse off to be healthy- to be a happier me.

In real life, I've met a few obstacles.  People who don't quite get why I am doing this.  A person who is convinced I have got WLS to "get this far" (ROFL - and waving "hi" if you read this - I didn't).  I want to be healthier in body, and in mind.  That is why I chose this program.  I needed the mindset, the support to be me, and people to kick me back up when I fall down.  And a massive thumbs up for the new menu and it's design.  Love it!

I was also pleased to have a lovely chat with Catherine today - thanks for coming to chat :)  Hope it helped.

I'm currently sitting watching a FB group who I was involved in last time virtually implode.  I'm saddened, as I am such a fence sitter and like to see both sides of the story. Its a habit that puts me in good stead for my career, but not in this case.  I need to bite the bullet and go.

Well, of to make 'I can't believe it's not butter chicken' tonight - 320 cals of yummy goodness xx

Ah, the things that can hold you back

 First off water report.  It is 12.40pm and I'm at half way.  Drink up buttercup!

Round 2 day 1.  First hitch - sick girl child.

So, rather than declaring it a rest day, I did the toning workout from day two (easier to do at home).  Did it in 2 lots, as I was interrupted by an upset child but, not too bad for a burn at home.  Particularly a toning burn!

Meet Stubbie - he is my partner in crime when I'm exercising at home.

JFDI is the name of the game - I can do this!

Rest day - and round 2 focuses ...

Rest day today - it was lovely.  I really felt that I had 'earned' it.  I also get the importance, as the stiffness from the week has rapidly disappeared today (although that may be the magnesium suppliment :P)


I'm still strolling through the preseason goals.  I do have a weight based goal in mind, but its more of a personal goal, so will leave that aside.

I've got 3 fitness/lifestyle aims:

1/ To do a 5km in under 40 minutes.
2/ To commit to trying a new MB meal with the kids every week.
3/  To drink 3 + litres of water every day.  Every day - no exceptions.

I have yet to buy my reward for losing 25 kilos.  So, based on goal three - I need some new, decent quality water bottles/jugs.  Never say no to a good shopping trip :P

L2R starts tomorrow.  Scared yet somewhat excited.  PT session to be booked - now that is scary!  LOL

Saturday - push out of my comfort zone day :)

Today I jumped out of my comfort zone, and played DIV2 hockey.  I've been playing DIV3 for years - since I quit DIV1 goalie (which was 1996ish)

Anyhow, I played.  I played a full game.  I near scored a goal, and I held my own fitness wise.  I ran - and I had fun :)

And, I have some hard work that I have put in to thank.  I could run today, I could chase.  I couldn't do that - even 3 months ago.  This is why I am doing this - I want a healthier me.  And today, today was a sign, that I am getting that step closer.

Good times, good times.

We lost 8-2.  But I had fun.

Ok onto Round 2.

Well since this program is working for me, I've decided to do another round.  One could say I'm a sucker for pain :P

Anyhow, to cut a long story short, I want to blog more, and I want accountability.  I have heaps of challenges in my way (who doesn't) ....  so I'm going to blog - Fiona style.

In this round, I'm doing Learn to Run (or L2R).  This round, I'm aiming high.  I'm going to complete a 5 km in under 40 minutes.  I'm hoping to run that whole 5k.  I'm going to complete the colour run, and have a ball doing it.

So - each day I'm going to post about my exercise (and when the program starts - the food).

Day 1 (Wed 8th)

Me after popping my 10 minutes on the eliptical cherry!

Day 2 -

Working hard - gorgeous  sunset - and C25K Week one, day 2 - smashed!

Day 3-

 

My SSS - on a Friday - C25K Day 3 week 1 completed, weights and 10 minutes on the rowing machine to complete :)

I can do this!

Round 1 done and dusted!

Stats - 27.8 kilos lost.


That is this!

Yup - I've lost a whole fish!

In all seriousness - I've lost the weight of what my then 7 year old weighed.  No, it isn't lost, cause it isn't coming back - I've given away a whole fish!

I've also managed to give back 140cm of my body - I suppose circumference would be a good term?

All the hard work - worth it.

2 posts in one day - but a little brag is needed :)

Every 4 weeks in Mish's program is mini milestone week.  These are the weeks where we have to redo our fitness tests, and our measurements.

So, to say I was approaching this week with trepidation is an understatement.  I can't see any changes in my body.  I know some things are a little big, but really, not a lot of change.

Perception is a crazy thing.

In the last 4 weeks I have lost 50cm off my body (chest, waist, hips, arms, and my fav (spew) thighs)
50cm.   That's more than what my three kids were in length when they were born.  That is 1 and 2/3'rds of a 30cm ruler.  That is almost 5 yards (for my US friends).

Tears of happiness.  When combined with my first ever measurements taken when I first started preseason, I have lost 20cm of my hips, 20cm off my chest, and a HUGE almost 28cm off my waist.  From pre-season to first round measurements I lost 40.5cm.   So 90.5cm in total.  That's almost a metre.

This program does work - for me and others.  I can do this, and I can enjoy it :)  This will get me healthy to save my life.

1.7 kilo loss over the past 2 weeks.

And I confess I was feeling a little down.  Since the program started - I've "only" lost 5.9  kilos -which with my weight, is just not a lot.  It is 12.2 kilo all together. 
I decided (along with about 1500 others to join in on the Women's 5km (for breast cancer) on Sunday.


I also had a really disappointing walk/run on Sunday.  I turned my ankle, and my head during it went off in a tangent, and I lost focus.  All I wanted to do was go like this

I was really frustrated, and wanted to curl up in bed, and lick my wounds.  I so wanted to do well, and smash my best time.  I wanted to blame everyone.

 This weeks video was about not being a victim.  About blaming others, about not seeing the positives in what we are doing.  Besides teasing my mum (hi Mum!) for leaving me - I need to draw positives from this race.  It was stinking hot - and I completed it.  I gave everything -

You know - 2 months ago, I had no hope of even finishing 5km without dying.  Now - I completed it, and really - 50.39, plus a 7 min cool down - what a cal burn!

And that is my lesson.  I would have given up 2 months ago.  Heck, I probably wouldn't have entered.  Next years challenge - smash the time set this year :)

Fee xx

Super dooper Sunday Session

Since the kids had their Aths champs yesterday - the 12WBT recommended 1000 cal burn wasn't done.  So today - made up for that :)


1760 cal burn - thank you very much!

Smashed it :)

Today's motivation - I broke the 10 kilos lost, so figured I'd burn some cals, and walk into town (and return) to buy myself some new workout gear (my old stuff is old, stretched and too damn big!)

Well, with the help of my lovely walking buddy -

Yup, we SMASHED it!  SSS on a Wednesday - don't mind if I do :)

2.2 kilos lost this week ...

And the pic above - that is what I have lost (10.6 in total) since I started this "journey".  I'm so impressed - I normally falter, and stack it back on way more.  I'm not going to this time. 

Off for a walk into town - and I need to buy some new trackpants - these ones fall down!

One hour swim equals

And what kept me going ....

Week 1 round up.

Well - what a week!  My husband has been away, so it was full on kid wrangling, plus fitting in exercise.

I'm proud to say, it was a good week.  My ankle that has been a little funny since last week played up again, but walking doesn't see to effect it too badly.  Yay!  My shins have been giving me merry hell (same leg as the ankle) so I did take 2 rest days.  Not ideal, but it had to be done.

The recipes that are in the meal plan - so far, just divine.  Dippy eggs (as they are now known in our house) are a massive hit -  as was the pizza.  The only thing that was disliked was the fish and chickpeas.

Weight loss - 2.2 down this week - making 8.5 in total (on WIW - known as Weigh in Wednesday).  A sneaky weigh in today, shows a 2 kilo loss again.  Will this happen on WIW next week?  Who knows.  Makes me feel good about this week so far though :P

Overall - am loving it.  Loving it!

Preseason over.

Menu and exercise plans out.  All starts on Monday.

Tomorrow, I step out of my comfort zone, and have my daughter take the 'before' pics.  Wish me luck.

This week food wise I haven't been great.  I've had a few beverages, and I've stressed myself.

But, I've exercised.  I've jumped way out of my comfort zone and swam 2.2km, and managed to stumble through 25 minutes of a cardio shred workout.  And you know what - I'm thrilled.  It was a tough week, I've got through it and am stronger at the other end. 

A bad day happens.  Tomorrow is another day.

Its getting closer to the end of pre-season

and the start of the 12 weeks.  I am pretty pleased overall about how I have been going.

Food wise, nothing has really thrown me.  I did fit a glass of wine and two beers into my calories over the period.   I was going to completely abstain, but this is a lifestyle not a diet - I need to learn how to fit all sorts of things into my lifestyle, otherwise it won't work for me.

Very exciting post arrived here today.  First my heart rate monitor (HRM - Polar FT60 was the end decision) and my fit-bit zip.  So far so good.  The fit bit has encouraged me to do some more incidental exercise already (I got it at 2.30pm, and squeezed an extra 2000 steps into my day - nice!)

I'm looking forward to exercising tomorrow with them, and seeing how I go :)

900 gram loss

So for 3 weeks, its a 6.3 kilo loss TTD.  I'm happy but not thrilled.  I'm happy the scales have gone in the right direction, not thrilled, as I  can see what my 'blow out' did.   Tracking has amazed and shocked me.  Effective method though :)

I'm beginning to feel a little fitter, I'm beginning to feel a little stronger.  Since Monday I have walked 21km.

Still on the search for a HRM. 

Its been a eye opening experience thus far,  I've have learned a lot.  Coped my first abuse last night - was from a maggoted teen so didn't take it seriously!  Funny.

Can now see the one step forward, two steps back.

Food.

Its a bitch - a real bitch. 

Last night, I ate ALL my cals for the day.  Way over what I have eaten for the past three-ish weeks.  I used my celebration as an excuse, and made it into a food fest.   Not all bad choices (well besides the handful of BBQ shapes) but a lot of food.  I'm disappointed - but, I have to learn.

Today is a new day.  Today I've eaten clean, and walked my 5km.  Today will be different.  One day, this will seem natural, this lifestyle change will be normal and the slip ups will be less and less.

Heck, it could be worse eh?

100km.  3 weeks.  Happy camper.

Ok, I can do it.  100km in 21 days.

Todays challenge - 100km in 19 days.  I can do this :)

(ok, the secret is this 19 days to get some km's in my legs.  I will "aim" at my current speed (so 55- 59 min per 5kms)  If it is slower - meh.   This challenge is ALL about the kms.  This is all about putting my money where my mouth is. 

Anyone wish to join me?

First 5km race

And I walked.  However, I knocked (along with the girl child) 4 1/2 minutes of my best time (53 min) The oldest boy child pulled a 40 (TBC) minutes, and the youngest a 47.    The husband ran the whole way, and did a 35.  So proud of him.

I'm so happy about the lifestyle changes that our family has adopted.  They have all jumped it - no whinges, and little complaints about all the exercise.  I'm also proud to say that ALL 3 children ran their 800m without stopping.  That's not unusual for the boy children, but has never happened with the girl child.  It was the true Cliff Young shuffle, but pure stubbornness got her around.

In 3 weeks, I have walked 96 km. Wow.

My fitness pal (MFP) and Mapmywalk (MMW) have become my bosom buddies.  I record every walk, and before the food goes into my mouth, it is entered in MFP.

I've also got to thank my fellow walkers.  Most days someone will walk with me.  I'm not actually concentrating on speed, its on km's in legs.  Its getting better :)

2013 - New year, new mindset.

On the 7th Jan, my life changed.  It changed for the better.

On the 7th of Jan, I took a huge step - and signed up for Michelle Bridges 12WBT.

I threw myself into the preseason challenges - a little half heartedly in places, but did well.

On the 14th of Jan, pre season started.  This lead to me really examining myself and why I over eat.  Why I make bad food choices.  Why I drink to excess.  Why I wanted to care but didn't.  Why I am hiding behind my cloak of fatness.

I've come through this with many tears.  I've assessed my excuses - internal, external, ones in my control and ones out of my control.  I've made a commitment to my FB 30+ group - a commitment to my health.  I've joined a local group, and started to make some new friends. 

I'm walking with some great friends - I'm tracking whatever goes into my mouth.  I've resisted the temptation of chocolate, of chips and alcohol.  I've quit bread - its bloating for me.  I've began to measure my flabbishness, and reminded myself it took several years to put on, its not going to be a day or two to remove. 

Ive got support from my delightful husband (who is following the program with me) and my gorgeous children who are on school holidays are walking with me - they have walked 20km this week (and its only Friday!)

This time will be different.  This year is my year.  This year I will do it.

2012 - the year of the excuse

Need I say more.  got fatter - cut back on exercise (cause that will make me skinnier - lol) and blamed everyone else than myself.  Drank to excess far too many times.  Ate what I thought was healthy.  Ha!

Life wise - a good year.  Health wise - it sucked.